Dear diary—I mean, Reader...

Lately I’ve been catching myself in the gap. The gap between who I say I want to be… and how I’m actually showing up.

Here’s what I mean.

With my team, I’ve been tossing tasks into Slack like confetti. Things falling through the cracks, projects half-tracked. And then I had to stop and ask myself: if I say I’m building a multi-million-dollar business, why am I running it like a side hustle?

So I’ve been building out a CRM. A real system. Pipelines, tasks, client flow—all in one place. Because the CEO version of me doesn’t lead from chaos. She leads from clarity.

And then there’s my body. Postpartum has been tender and beautiful and exhausting. And honestly? Food has been my shortcut. I’ve always loved moving—walks, workouts, sweat dripping down my back. But when it came to food, I reached for ease. And ease wasn’t serving me.

So I started meal prepping. Not glamorous, just consistent. And I’ve already released 10 pounds—not because of the scale, but because of the promises I kept to myself. That feels abundant.

Even in my marriage, I’ve had to face myself. Noticing when my attitude slips. Noticing when I don’t show up with the patience or softness I want to. Because if I say I desire partnership, intimacy, love… then I can’t push that version of me off for “later.”

It all comes back to this: abundance isn’t a someday. It’s right here in the DAILY actions.

If I say I’m going to batch content—I batch it.

If I say I’m going to nourish my body—I prep my meals.

If I say I want to be magnetic in a room—I care for myself like I already am.

That’s abundance in action. It’s not the vision board. It’s the living board.

So I’ll ask you what I’ve been asking myself: Are you living like the version of you who already has it?

✨ If you feel called, reply to this email and write to me as her.

Tell me what she’s celebrating, what she’s creating, what she’s choosing in this season.

Because I believe she already exists—you’re just learning to trust her voice.

🫶🏾 Jourdan